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i feel like a rapist

Mon, 21 Sep 2026 20:45:15 GMT

nothing is reciprocated

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second week of university second year

Mon, 21 Sep 2026 03:37:33 GMT

today is monday. i have slept a total of 1 hour and 30 minutes.

i had dropped a class, to replace it with another class, and for an even worse schedule. 3 classes back to back! 8am until 2pm! no breaks!
i already have 8am everyday..... i am scared!

i am in class as i am typing this. this course is about southeast asia. i feel like a machine without fuel.
we have been assigned two readings for next week already.. how is it this intense and it's only the second week?

どうしよう？

my first class of the day was japanese, in which i forgot to do my homework -- a mini-presentation. my partner had done it but he did not format it properly, and i did not have his contact beforehand. oh well... it wasn't a serious one, just an in-class activity.

i started wearing light makeup to classes. just karacon and eye makeup and lip tint/gloss and powder on top of sunscreen. i want to be pretty.
i lost weight and can now fit into my mom's old bootcut denim.

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:-(

Thu, 17 Sep 2026 07:13:21 GMT

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new school year

Sun, 13 Sep 2026 08:33:08 GMT

tomorrow i will start my second year of university. i am worried about leaving home again each week because of family troubles. and i am not ready yet!

i registered for a heavy course load and i don't know if i can handle it or if i should drop 1 course so that i can maintain my nice gpa.. i might do that. i hate money

this is my first post

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